"We will not tire; We will not falter; We will not fail." What an awesome tribute to those firefighters. The filmmakers did a fantastic job. The sounds were awful.. all those thuds.. the bodies hitting.. gave me awful chills. I did cry through most of the documentary. It was just heartbreaking. Per CBS News tonight - 2077 bodies are still not recovered from Ground Zero.

Is anyone going to watch the CBS show about 9/11 tonight? I will be watching. I can already anticipate crying through most of the show. I am of mixed feeling about it being aired. It's not like the filmmakers set this up as soon as the towers fell. It was already a documentary in the making. My heart and prayers go out to all the people whose lives were lost on September 11. Never forget.

I will learning how to make tables on Wednesday in class. UGH UGH. I thought we were going to learn them on Friday but we learned about lists/unordered lists, changing margins, etc.. Oy - my head hurts!

I finally made it to my blog! Hooray! I never got a chance to visit my Mom yesterday. She got very sick on Friday night. When I talked to her Saturday morning, we decided it was best for her health to stay home. ::sigh:: Poor Mom - she really misses the girls. But I just can't risk her health. We got some errands done, including putting up Olivia's BIG GIRL bed! She looks SO damn cute in it! I took a couple pictures of her in it and she looks so sweet. She stayed in it during her nap and throughout the night. I am so proud of her!! I worked on my final last night for about 4 hours. I have ONE problem I am having a helluva time finding.. much less fixing. BUT - I will work on it some more tonight and hopefully I will be finished by Monday/Tuesday night.

Company Policy or "Why I no longer work for M@cW@rehouse" Start with a cage containing 5 monkeys. Inside the cage, hang a banana on a string and place a set of stars under it. Before long, a monkey will go to the stairs and start to climb towards the banana. As soon as he touches the stairs, spray all the monkeys with cold water. After a while another monkey will make an attempt with the same result - all the monkeys are sprayed with cold water. Pretty soon, when another monkey tries to climb the stairs, the other monkeys will try to prevent it. Now, put away the cold water. Remove one monkey from the cage and replace it with a new one. The new monkey sees the banana and wants to climb the stairs. To his surprise and horror, all the other monkeys attack him. After another attempt and attack, he knows climbing the stairs will provoke an assault. Next, remove another original of the 5 monkeys and replace it with a newcomer. The newcomer goes to the stairs and is attacked. The previous newcomer participates with all the others. Likewise, replace another original monkey with a new one, then a 4th, then a fifth. Every time the newest monkey attempts the stairs they are attacked. Most of the attacking monkeys have no idea why they are not permitted to climb the stairs or why they are beating the newest monkey. After replacing all the original monkeys, none of the monkeys have ever been sprayed with cold water. Nevertheless, no monkey ever again approaches the stairs to try for the banana. Why not? Because as far as they know that's the way it's always been done. This is how company policy begins....

Talked to Mom earlier - Results will be in next week ::sigh:: Sorry about the self pitying post from last night... I was just venting. Moira has a playdate at one of her little buddies house tomorrow while Paul, Olivia and I will be going up to visit Mom for a few hours. She is doing much better and her voice is almost back to normal. She has lost 20lbs on the Chemo Diet. Surprisingly, she still has a lot her hair, although it is obviously thinner than it was before chemo. She keeps it cut very close to her head - almost a crew cut. It doesn't look to bad! I have class tonight. The instructor warned us that it would be a 3 cup of coffee night ::grin:: I will be be learning about tables and links. Hooboy... what fun! Thanks to Blogger, I have learned a bunch of stuff before my class even started. I am a little concerned with an upcoming class, which is an Intro to Java. It requires programming experience and I have none. NONE. Hopefully, Paul can show me some stuff. He knows some C++ and COBOL.

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I have been having these really sad thoughts and bad dreams lately... not sure why. That's not true... I do know why but I don't want to deal with it. I have been trying so hard to be upbeat. It's just not working. I just have these awful thoughts in my head. I just wish I had some kind of magic wand to make everything better. Yeah yeah.. I know there's no such thing. I feel like shit My Mom gets her results from her PET scan tomorrow. Please God - I hope the chemo worked..

Bahahahahaha! Wil Wheaton is the Special Guest on Beat The Geeks.

Why am I watching "Beat the Geeks?". I really dislike the Movie Geek. I don't have a good reason why.. I just dislike him.