Company Policy or "Why I no longer work for M@cW@rehouse" Start with a cage containing 5 monkeys. Inside the cage, hang a banana on a string and place a set of stars under it. Before long, a monkey will go to the stairs and start to climb towards the banana. As soon as he touches the stairs, spray all the monkeys with cold water. After a while another monkey will make an attempt with the same result - all the monkeys are sprayed with cold water. Pretty soon, when another monkey tries to climb the stairs, the other monkeys will try to prevent it. Now, put away the cold water. Remove one monkey from the cage and replace it with a new one. The new monkey sees the banana and wants to climb the stairs. To his surprise and horror, all the other monkeys attack him. After another attempt and attack, he knows climbing the stairs will provoke an assault. Next, remove another original of the 5 monkeys and replace it with a newcomer. The newcomer goes to the stairs and is attacked. The previous newcomer participates with all the others. Likewise, replace another original monkey with a new one, then a 4th, then a fifth. Every time the newest monkey attempts the stairs they are attacked. Most of the attacking monkeys have no idea why they are not permitted to climb the stairs or why they are beating the newest monkey. After replacing all the original monkeys, none of the monkeys have ever been sprayed with cold water. Nevertheless, no monkey ever again approaches the stairs to try for the banana. Why not? Because as far as they know that's the way it's always been done. This is how company policy begins....
Talked to Mom earlier - Results will be in next week ::sigh:: Sorry about the self pitying post from last night... I was just venting. Moira has a playdate at one of her little buddies house tomorrow while Paul, Olivia and I will be going up to visit Mom for a few hours. She is doing much better and her voice is almost back to normal. She has lost 20lbs on the Chemo Diet. Surprisingly, she still has a lot her hair, although it is obviously thinner than it was before chemo. She keeps it cut very close to her head - almost a crew cut. It doesn't look to bad! I have class tonight. The instructor warned us that it would be a 3 cup of coffee night ::grin:: I will be be learning about tables and links. Hooboy... what fun! Thanks to Blogger, I have learned a bunch of stuff before my class even started. I am a little concerned with an upcoming class, which is an Intro to Java. It requires programming experience and I have none. NONE. Hopefully, Paul can show me some stuff. He knows some C++ and COBOL.
I have been having these really sad thoughts and bad dreams lately... not sure why. That's not true... I do know why but I don't want to deal with it. I have been trying so hard to be upbeat. It's just not working. I just have these awful thoughts in my head. I just wish I had some kind of magic wand to make everything better. Yeah yeah.. I know there's no such thing. I feel like shit My Mom gets her results from her PET scan tomorrow. Please God - I hope the chemo worked..